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Yelena Belova ([personal profile] musicdied) wrote in [community profile] clandestinement2023-03-24 01:11 am

Apocalypse children - for [personal profile] worthallthis


There's an alarm sounding somewhere in the compound, harsh and urgent and ignored, and somehow still less jarring than the occasional creak of metal. Beneath that, voices sound, quick and quiet and tense, the pitch entirely wrong for any technicians, any handlers, anyone who belongs in this room.

"...sure you did it right?"

"I entered the sequence exactly like I was supposed to!"

"Then why isn't it--"

The first voice cuts off at the hydraulic hiss of the cryo tube opening. The inrush of air brings with it the smell of smoke, and the acrid taste of heated metal, and the sound of nervous gasps and small feet on grated metal flooring.

Outside the cryo tube stands a group of girls, the oldest somewhere around twelve or thirteen, the youngest perhaps four, clinging tight to the leg of one of the older girls and peering at the tube with wide-eyed fascination.

The girl who positions herself at the front of the pack - and they are a pack, all but the smallest fierce-eyed and wary - doesn't look like the oldest, round-faced, blonde hair straggling loose from her braids, clothing and skin streaked with blood and a bruise darkening beneath one eye. She lifts her chin, and looks with bright defiance at the man she and her sisters have just pulled from the dreamless grip of cryo-stasis.

"Winter Soldier," she says in clear Russian, and despite her fierce air, there's something like hope in her voice. "Can you understand me?"
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-04-04 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
He nods to that, expressionless. He... knew that, to some extent. He knew at least some of the girls could fight. He just needed to ask to remember, apparently.

Knowing which ones can't is useful, too, and his curls his arm more protectively around Alisa. He will make sure nothing harms her. And that if she doesn't want to learn to fight, she doesn't have to. That's his job. (Why would she not want to learn? That seems like a strange thought.)

"If they want. If you want. We can keep training. But anyone we come across. Will probably not need high-contact mission skills." Most people, he thinks, will be injured or sick or at the very least untrained. Easy enough for him to pick them off himself. Little girls should not need to murder people.

Should not need to murder people again. Since they have clearly done so to get him out.
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-04-11 06:40 am (UTC)(link)
If you want a hug, Yelena, all you gotta do is come snuggle, too. Despite knowing at least some of these children are deadly, he finds he isn't particularly afraid of them. It's a strange feeling, to not be afraid of a person. Maybe it's because they are so small. Or because this one calls him Brother.

He nods. "All right. Not now. You have. Clearly just had practice." He shoots another look at the boots, gives Alisa a pat in warning, then eases to his feet. He isn't shivering anymore, and while he still feels a little ice in his veins, it's tolerable. It's the lack of the predictable routine that has him feeling off balance, but in a way like he's waiting for the hammer to fall, more than out of actual discomfort. He doesn't look at the Chair, across the chamber. He doesn't look at it.

"Show me what you did to the handlers," he says first. Seeing them dead with his own eyes feels. Necessary. He can catalogue them all, help drag them somewhere that the children might not have had the strength to do. Get them out of sight. "And someone take Alisa for me."
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-04-12 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
He gives Alisa's hair a stroke in parting, idly and distracted, following Yelena to the first body. He regards the man steadily for a long minute before deciding he doesn't actually know his face. It doesn't matter. He's dead and he deserves to be, for what he'd agreed to be part of. Hurting little girls.

He grabs one of those boots to start dragging him to one side, well away from the cryotank and the rest of the girls. Might as well start the clean-up now.
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-04-21 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
Being armed would be better. It would be... appropriate. So he nods. "I would be better able to protect you with weapons," he agrees. "We can clean up. Then I will load up with weapons." He heaves the dead body out into the hall behind his cryotube, letting it block out the sight of the Chair temporarily.

It's the one that leads to the medical rooms rather than records or dorms. There are probably more bodies in the dorms and training rooms, he's guessing, but probably not many in medical. He has no desire to go into the medical rooms to check. The girls probably did that already, and he can just. Leave any that were in there, where they fell.

He realizes he has no idea of the regular complement of this place, beyond the guards he remembers seeing trained on him before the put him in the ice. "Is this all the girls left?" he asks, looking back over the motley collection clustered around his cryotube.
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-04-24 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
It's possible that those girls are dead, too. It's possible that they also led a revolt. It's possible that they were the ones considered worth keeping, and the ones here left to dispose of. He doesn't know.

"We can look for them later," he suggests, turning towards the hall leading to the storage and records rooms. He can clear out any bodies there, too, and check for previous security logs at the same time. "Do you want to stay with them or come with me," he says. It's meant as a question, even if it doesn't really sound like one.
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-04-30 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
That's a sweet sentiment. Maybe not always feasible, with him, depending on what they will need to do in the future, but sweet and something he wants to encourage with the girls. "Okay," he says, starting that way.

After a few steps of silence, he asks, "Did they ever put you or the other girls. Did they ever." He frowns and points in the direction of the Chair, which is also the direction of the cryotube. Either one. He'll take either answer, really.
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-05-04 06:37 am (UTC)(link)
"Good." That's good. Maybe it was just for him, he doesn't know. There's only one cryotank, anyway, and the Chair is... it's too big for the little girls. Even the older ones would be able to slip their arms out of the clamps, duck away from the halo. And that's good.

He moves into the hall, turning the corner, and frowns at another body before kicking it to one side. He'll drag it out on their way back out. "I don't remember much," he warns her. "You know I don't remember you. Not really. But that thing. It. It takes everything except the training."
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-05-12 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
He twitches once at the touch, and drifts to a stop again, not shaking her off, but having to actually process what she said and what it means. He can't envision a future where he has a past. He doesn't know what that feels like. He doesn't even know if it's possible.

But breaking the Chair. He wants that. (The soldier is not supposed to want. He does anyway.)

Finally, after a long pause and a heavy swallow, eyes burning a little with some unfamiliar emotion, he says, "Good. That's. Thank you."
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-05-14 07:57 am (UTC)(link)
For someone who has never in his remembered life been protected, it doesn't even really compute. He doesn't know what that looks like, either. But he thinks maybe he wants that, too.

Not even an hour out of the ice, and the programming is already degrading this much. But if there's no more Chair (no more Chair no more Chair), then there's no way to fix it. He thinks these girls wouldn't try to fix it, anyway. New memories. New programming, maybe.

He swipes at his face with the flesh hand and resumes walking. "The records room is in here," he says.
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-05-27 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Right. Just because he doesn't remember her in here doesn't mean she hasn't been in here. He shakes himself a little, and steps in to take in said mess. These two faces, he knows. And he scowls at them, and resists the urge to kick their fallen bodies. Instead he takes a foot on each one and drags them out of the way easily, where no one can see them.

"How many did you lose," he asks, without looking at the place where another person clearly fell. "Taking this place."
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-05-29 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
It makes him feel-- sick. He wants to take Yelena against his side, like he did for Alisa. (And at the same time his skin crawls with the desire not to. It's an unpleasant contradiction.)

He wants to kick the bodies, again, but he knows it's pointless. They're dead. It wouldn't do anything. He does drop them with a little more force than necessary when he puts them down, though. "It won't happen again," he promises instead, managing to inject something fierce into his voice somehow. "It won't."
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[personal profile] worthallthis 2023-06-06 07:16 am (UTC)(link)
If they aren't, Brother thinks he might make an effort to make them. But only if he can do it while the kids are safe. That's the most important thing. That's the mission, not revenge.

He moves over to the monitor and keyboard, frowns at it a moment until he remembers how to use it, then starts typing to activate the system. The most recent records should already be in the system, if it went down shortly after the meteor strike. Two hours were corrupted, the girl said. There's still almost two days of records.

"Check that shelf. See if there is a tape marked with yesterday's date," he tells Yelena.

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